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Friday, February 24, 2012 Having walked so much thus far, i asked myself a simple question, am i happy? Right now everyone's busy with their own lives. Dajie/song, too busy with kd they aint got the time to have dinner with me, not even to listen to what i wanna say. Erjie/Eric, sanjie/louis... way too far. Dad? not even in the picture. Mum isnt really the best person to talk to cos it makes her worried too much. So home is warm, but still i was forced to close myself in, into my room. All i have is the com, and 4 walls to surround me. Work has been way excellent. I cant remember which part of my life when i can be praised by so many people for so many times. Truthful or just a figure of speech, i ain't matter. But it felt like my efforts have been seen. Gary and I are really doing a splendid job setting up the whole of manufacturing services in Rolls-Royce. I am glad that, in my supervisor's absence, we can follow our ideas more easily without he and his "expertise" there to stop us. It's a fantastic feeling knowing that everyone is depending on you tho u are just an intern and they are perm staffs. Ego boosts. But if only i can work for 24/7. I may just feel more fulfilled in life. Looking at the graduates working in Rolls Royce, the move around so frequently, once every 6 months doing different jobs in different countries. Im really jealous of them. How i hope that i can be like tat them right now this moment. I really wish to just disappear from where i am, go to a place where there are no records of myself, just to start everything anew. I appear strong infront of people. But they can never understand how much i hoped for certain things to happen. How i wished i could hold on tight to the one i love. How much i can spend every minute with her. Be in her life every moment. Unfortunately to mask all that, i have to do exactly the opposite of just tat. screw it. just tired. nights world i'm so sure of what i feel inside 11:35 PM |