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Sunday, May 29, 2011 Dear Sir, Please try to put urself in my shoes and consider how I will feel if you were me. Imagine u have a girlfriend that fancies having tonnes of friends in her life. Being all bubbly and friendly, she got to know another guy who clicks very much with her. This guy than falls in love with your gf. Well nothing wrong with that i feel. So long as the girl doesn't cheat on you, i feel it's fine. As the saying goes, u can stop yourself from loving someone, but u cant stop another from loving you. Perfectly fine with that. But this guy, knowing that ur girl is attached, and has treats u solely as a good buddy; one that she cannot afford to lose, starts to stick too closely to her. Even to a point he starts to spend every single minute of his life with her. Your girlfriend, being the bubbly and friendly buddy reciprocates. Unfortunately, you the boyfriend simply stays too far literally to spend this amount of time with her. How will you feel? It's weird that this guy, simply indulges himself in his passionate love and fails to spare a thot for you. Am i right? If you too slow to understand, let me tell u, I'M GOD DAMN REFERRING TO YOU. How will i feel when u are treating my GIRL THIS WAY? Tell me how am i suppose to feel. What am I suppose to understand to make myself feel better? Someone tell me I am damn wrong to be feeling like smacking u right in the face. Arghh !@#!%!@#!@... i'm so sure of what i feel inside 11:09 PM Saturday, May 21, 2011 At some points of time, patience just ran low. And i realize, there is none for me anymore. I'm just too logical. When things like this happen, i go searching for the reason why it did. It is so true that a relationship depends neither on words nor flowers. Relationships are forged on experiences and time spent together. If u are having so little time to commit, relatively to somebody else, it is a call that nothing good is ever gonna turn out. And i was proven right. But why are certain mindsets and perspectives locked in so soon. Have u really waited for me for so long, and got so impatient? It's a dumb way to ends things. It did not end when i haven't paid enuf attention, it ended when i just wanted to pay attention. Must things really happen this way? Why didn't the two of us stay calm, and wind things back to the way it was back den? Why is ur heart so easily shaken by external factors? Why did ur heart change?? I cannot find anymore reasons than to say, u no longer love me. I hope I can be proven wrong. As of now, I am still living in my dreams. Dreaming that i will see u later today. Have a movie, dinner tgt and finally meet my frens. Go on dates during this long awaited holiday. More movies. Jap food. Sentosa. East Coast. The beach. Do all sorts of interesting things I've always planned of doing. But now, as i drag myself out of the bed, i realize, my phone no longer rings. There is no one, no one, to enjoy the time now with me. I've placed all my eggs in one basket, and I've lost all of them. Please let the sleeping continue. So i can live off in my dreams. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 11:25 AM |