Tuesday, April 5, 2011


I seem to have so many things to tell u. At the same time im lost for words when i asked myself what should i say when i see you. What is happening?

I cant wait for the exams to be done. Im getting utterly exhausted. I need a break from all this shit. I need to find myself a corner. To be alone.

Minor quiz in a while later. I better do well for all these efforts.

Im getting stronger. Im telling myself this, even if it means lying to myself.


i'm so sure of what i feel inside 2:38 PM



Friday, April 1, 2011


Ppl get happy. Ppl get sad. When can we eva get out of this cycle and just be happy?

Caught a short clip just yesterday off a FB post by a fren. It was about this man who did an ironman Triathlon . An Ironman Triathlon is one where by one will have to swim 4km, cycle 180km and run 42km.

Some of you guys will say that this race is simply inhuman. It really takes "Tony" Stark(Iron Man) himself to complete the race. Well guys, that's not the end. This fella completed the race with his father. Well his father was with him, but he wasnt running. His father, i guess bedridden from some sort of paralysis, was there so he could push him as he ran, carry him on his bike as he cycled, pull him on a buoyant as he swam. For the entire journey of the race. 4km on the rough sea, 180m on the bike and the remaining 42km on feet.

Some of us may already find an individual segment of the race impossible. But this man did everything, while carrying his father along. Strong mind and physique some will say.

Well i guess most of those who have watched this clip found the man incredibly incredible. Strong in the mind etc. But i see more. I see his life, his father's life. Can anyone of us even imagine what is it like to live his life, their life? A man, probably a family breadwinner, to support a family, plus a bedridden father. What kind of commitment does it take? The father, bedridden, unable to talk, chose to life strong for his son, sees his son go thru the pain to finish the race with him. and probably every time when he trained. Truly remarkable.

It is sad most of us only see what comes in face value, but we paid so little attention to the efforts spend trying to display that 1sec worth of feat. But anyway that isnt the main food for thought here. Just after my run today, i thot abt myself in their shoes. And i asked myself, if i have the courage to continue living if i were the father, not to mention still complete great things like that. How i'll face reality, if my wife got paralyzed(but of cos touch wood). It got me pretty sad thinking abt it. I wouldnt know. I may have talked big if i said that i will pass it all easily like a flick of a finger. I dunno.

This man is blessed i feel. Very blessed. Blessed with such courage, patience, and will power. U may think that im crazy. U may feel that he is the most pitiful guy in the world, but i chose not to see it that way. He had to make a choice; to be pitiful, or be strong. He became strong, and he achieved great things, he gave life to everyone who wanted to give up. He gave life to his father. Im touched. It make the problems and stress i have now, seem like as small as a speck of dust as to the size of the universe. I ought to be really happy with where i am now.

So i chose to continue smiling. I know there is this person who is ready to kick some butt in me. And i have yet to show. Im worthy. I know im worthy. U are worthy. too unless you choose not to. Open the windows, see things from another pt of view, we are all born with great strengths, only waiting for you to unlock. Just be confident in urself ::)

Jiayou ::)


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