Everyone have been feeling jaded and Siens lately. I can see that most of us seem to have lost sight on the goals set long b4 everything begun. Myself, for one, try my best not to be caught in the trend. Although i try desperately, the forces of darkness seem to make my efforts seem so futile.

Met out a friend yesterday for dinner. It was Jenrine. I havent seen her or heard from her for almost two years. Somehow when i went online on msn a few days back, she miraculously talked to me and asked me out for dinner. My honest opinion, she is one of the few to have ever done so in a long time. We ate, talked and shared. Sometimes i wonder if we are even close enough to be called better frens. But still it was warm to have met someone from my past. I felt like i was 17 again. Thank you Jen. Im happy that you looked great and things are going so so splendid for you. With all ur plans for ur future. Somehow we have all grown out of that small little shell of ours and here we are, ready to see the world. Can u believe? 6 long years have passed since we met. And we're not as young as we think anymore.

Things are going better for myself too. I guess I've pretty much recovered. Not thinking so much about certain things. However, Im not too sure if I'll be able to leave certain things behind completely. At least for now. Im not asking for more. Every smile, every sight, every touch of you makes me happy. I'll just live for the moment. I guess Love is like that. No plans (for now). Wanting to love is like being a daredevil sometimes. Though things are still left dangling at where it is, like a piece of lose meat sliced off a live cattle; still intact with it's body as it runs in pain. However it doesn't seem hurt so much if you focus your mind on other stuffs. I on one end, have no idea where this will lead to. Will time heal the wound? Or will time make the cut complete? I guess i'll just carry on forward. One day i will know.

It's still better to smile. I look much better in one too :: D