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Sunday, October 31, 2010 Sometimes i look back at the failures i had, then i looked at myself at this moment. Have i became stronger? Have i taught myself well the ways not to repeat those mistakes? Or am i still the same. Sometimes i feel that im really putting in my best, but results dont happen. Why is it so? Is it becos of the way i do it? or am i tat incapable. I've seen things work for others, well if they can, so can i isnt it? Just some food for thought. People make the wrong choices. Well i make wrong choices too.. most of the time sad to say. So what should we do when things go wrong? Blame the sky for not shining the sun at you? Or curse it cos u just happen to land on the wrong side of the bed? Well im not saying it's wrong to whine. It does comfort u alil. But *kakongs on the head. After whining what happens? If we seek refuge in the whines we make all the time, tho it sad, but the truth is.. the problem is probably gonna resurface and give u a hard slap in the cheek.. and guess wad.. for the second time and the third and more. What is that inner demon in u that creates all this issues for you? Isnt life hard enuf for all the things that happens just like that without any control? The things in life that will screw you upside down even without u knowing tat it is coming. Well i see a tough life just by getting screwed up live itself.. SO WHY ADD ON TO YOUR SUFFERINGS? If there's a way to make urself feel better.. take that route. And tat probably means... find ur mistakes. face it like a man. A human. Than change yourself; for yourself or the people that loves you. When u start falling and falling and falling over and over again.. and over time failing has gotten into you and you no longer feel good at all.. u have to convince yourself that its becos of those little demons in ur closet tat are hiding without ur knowledge.. and these are the pesky little pests that will screw all ur big ambitions when you are just this close to achieving. Its not the sky.. not the rain.. not the bus that you miss.. or just everything that u can whine and push the blame to. You are the blame. Time to open up my closet. and i really have to. I really have to. I hope you can open urs too. A person who succeeds did not conquer the world. A person who succeeds conquers himself. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 1:52 AM Friday, October 1, 2010 Sometimes i really wonder if life will turn out the way u plan it to be. Ha.. heavy heart. I dont even know where to begin. As you try to perfect each and every detail around you, I really start to ponder if all these efforts are really producing the correct form of results. Well u never know, the more you love someone, u may be hurting her as much on the contrary. Oh god im lost. I thot im having a fulfilling life, by joining all sorts of things, to have all sorts of entertainment amidst all the studying. Is that really the way to do things? I'm getting really confused over everything at this point of time. So what exactly am i doing right or am i doing wrong? Can someone please advise? Well i guess i have to sleep anyhow. Lab presentation tmr. Well i guess i cant do anithing better than talking. Or perhaps i'll just talk for the presentation and that's all. For the rest of the time i should just kip my mouth shut... im out. Good night and i need a break i'm so sure of what i feel inside 2:04 AM |