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Tuesday, July 20, 2010 Someone who is the perfect guy/girl for you. So who is this someone really? Alot of us will say that it will be the person who walks a blissful path with you when together; a person who is really similar and there is no real need to tolerate or compromise with. The others, argue that it is the person who walks a turbulent path with you; a person who reaches the end with you. Well if you pick the latter, wouldn't you have a life full of suffering than, if you do have the need to tolerate and compromise till the end? The Buddha said,"There are only two mistakes one can make along the road to truth; not going all the way, and not starting." Just to alter his quotation a little, I feel that there are only two mistakes one can make along the road of love; not going all the way, and not starting. Love can be distinguished between conditional love, and unconditional love. I bet you have some clues in mind what they seem to mean. Oh really? Love by true definition, is to bring happiness. While conditional love will mean clearly a fictitious form of love that seeks personal gains, unconditional love is one that requires a huge load of courage and acceptance (or more of self-acceptance). Now, when you say I love you, What do you really mean? Do you seek emotional comfort cos there will be someone to hug you? Or do you seek eternal happiness for him/her no matter how she is like? My dear, I love you. Wanting to love unconditionally is difficult, it takes courage really. To finally identify and continue to love (unconditionally) this person takes effort. Effort of self-reflection. It is through acceptance and appreciation. Not true tolerance and compromise. If walking the turbulent path till the end is a suffering to you, your love is conditional. Love unconditionally. That is what I'm still trying to. It is never easy. I really hope for your happiness, however my words and actions harm you sometimes. You are not that different really. Shall we self-reflect a little sometimes? Although the answers may not come that directly and it is more than what we can explain, but walk this path with me will you? Till the end. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 10:51 PM Friday, July 16, 2010 Was doing some soul searching and i recalled a particular segment of my life when i may have felt the same as you. Back than in the army, there was a PTI(physical training instructor), a regular, a well weathered one. He's old, however he was never incomparable to all the other youngsters in my camp. He is a great instructor who expects his trainees to be able to do all sort of things that he can. Cos to him, what he can, you can do. He's experiences in the physical side of life is packed with tonnes of different activities. He ran , swam, cycled, climbed, jumped.... you name it, he'd probably done it before. I remember going for his trainings, feeling pressured all the time. He is just that kind of person who will go, "What? you cant complete such a simple feat?" Even the other regulars from my camp felt that he lacks the mechanism to empathize his subordinates and trainees. "It is really important that you put yourself in their shoes and think of things from their prospective." said my 2ic. "You have been doing something things like that for such a long time, how can you expect others to be like you in an instant?" As an instructor myself back than, I used to tell my trainees that what i can, you can to. Did i bring out that attitude out as well? Have i unknowingly became someone like the old instructor I've mentioned? The thing is, I'm not an instructor anymore, I don't want to became someone like an ex-army officer, who still bears the "i'm still an officer" kind of attitude and goes treats everyone the same way he has done in his army days. I must stop all this. Before all's too late. There are things which i cannot lose. They are just too important. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 11:12 AM Thursday, July 15, 2010 While some don't show them all, there are also some who does it the wrong way. Forgive me. Although i try hard to give you all that is best, i realize at times, there are instances where what i deem best for you ain't really that good in reality. Even worse, they hurt you right to your core. Things that have been done to hope for that little smile off your face, became the cause to the last thing i want to see, your tears. To love is a tough subject to master. Learning how to show this love is another lesson all together. Please give me some time to read these subjects meticulously. Cos i wan to possess and give you one that last the lifetime, and many more to come. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 11:24 PM |