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Wednesday, November 11, 2009 yea.. I had u rotting here for sometime ya mr blog :) How i missed those times when i use to seek refuge in you. When there wasnt anyone arnd to talk to. I know i shldnt be here. Online.. looking at the screen typing this.. note which i doubt anyone will read. However there are just certain things i have in my heart. Things i really wan one to know. Yet i must do so in such a indirect manner. Being in a relationship has been terrific. However it brings abt it's own set of problems really. Your partner can sometime be someone whom u really understand. To be with you all the time. To share your happiness and sadness. In the midst of all that, one may to a pt, out of a sudden, realise as well, how distant and how much you didnt know and understand about your partner. Just like this familiar shadow you had doesnt seem so much like itself anymore. U try hard to understand the situation. But u cant help but feel powerless. The more u tried to comprehend. The more confused you get. I really hate cliffhangers. Dont tell me that things are alright when there are obviously things in your mind and you are not sharing. Sigh. So much for no secrets huh... but it's okay. as much as i hate it. i will make myself accept. haa.. only time can tell.. only time can tell.. i guess. Im writing here, with a heavy heart. To a pt i once again pick up the phone, wanting to dial up a number, hoping for someone who can make me feel better, hoping someone can give me some guidance. But i find myself back to where i was, when i had to drown all the sorrow and hopefully they will disappear after a good nights sleep. Unfortunately i have to work against it for now. Physics webassight X 5 more qns. Econs notes. and computing notes. Strength Courage and Bravery. Give them to me. Im 21 tmr:) happy birthday mingbang. I hope for a world with no sorrow. A world where everyone share loving kindness. I pray for safety for my family and all my loved ones. And for your happiness as well. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 8:29 PM |