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Tuesday, March 31, 2009 First failure.. first defeat of the year.. I gave thot to it. I still cant figure out what exactly went wrong with the interview. I was rather disappointed really. I was so confident. Over confident maybe. i thot i was indestructible. But i failed Good wake up call for me. Im not so zai. okay note taken. Time to be more modest. Another job den. HAhaha.. i like how celest put it, sometimes the lost of something may bring upon greater rewards.. i like that. Who knows what else might happen in my next job. Down with the first problem. The next one may take sometime to clear. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 8:56 PM Monday, March 30, 2009 vexxed? siens? i wonder. Till i figure out something. Just cant wait to strap on my running gear tmr morning.. go for a morning run.. yawns Wish list: Heavy Bag New Trainers New Knee guard New Hp Lots of money starcraft 2 i'm so sure of what i feel inside 8:59 PM Wednesday, March 18, 2009 i hate it when people stomp down my hopes. I've waited for it's coming for so long. and you people are telling me im gonna get slapped hard in the face by wad i've always been waiting for? I'll prove you people wrong. yawns. Stop victimising yourself. Your life aint tat bad people. U are fortunate enuf alr. To be able to study. To be able to do the things u like. U remind me of those low lifes back in those days in army. Stand up. Make a stand. Develop urself. If u think it's tough, toughen urself to make things simple for you. The world is fixed. The variable? You i'm so sure of what i feel inside 10:13 PM Thursday, March 12, 2009 for crying out loud. i apologise for the immature and childish post back den. What was i thinking? Hoping for a world full of nannies and body guards? The world didnt change. Neither was it an utopia at the first place. It was distorted.. true. but wad was the problem? The problem was with me. You(me) really think tat a place where everyone understands each other will exist? The very reason many dream of a heaven(haven) to go to in their next lifes probably proved my theory wrong. Oh well. The meaner the world is, the harder You gotta fight to change urself to survive. ah bollocks. tonnes of trashtalking.. I met up with my class. Well the usual ones. and the unusual ones. All i can say. It's time to move on. Work work i'm so sure of what i feel inside 11:08 PM Tuesday, March 10, 2009 "It's a small small world..." ya i heard the kids down below my block sing that song as i ate my dinner in a hurry.. i wudnt be late for tuition. How nice can it be if all of us can remain innocent and unaware of the real world.. just like those kids. However the reality hits me badly as i grew older with each passing minute. Hear me out kids, it's not a small world we live in, but a world filled with small people that we do. Small not literally.. but in their hearts. I thot the army was imperfect. I was wrong. The army was merely a subset of wad is. The world is the culprit. And the root of this distortion, is no one but the very species we call ourselves. Why cant everyone try a little harder to understand each other? By being the same species that we are, with the very biometric configurations we have in common in so many ways, is it really so hard to understand one another? U say yes? I think u havent tried. Why are we thinking of ways to hurt others so we can in the way find peace? Why cant we spend the time used to hurt others to find ways to live in peace together? I believe there's always a smarter way to do things. An easier way out that everyone benefits. Another way where no one gets hurt. As sophisticated we humans may be.. i feel we are in everyway as unintelligent. Hail(Hell) to the 8000 yrs of civilisation. Stupid people. Work was normal. Just that the happenings (that showed the taint of even those considered a pleasure to the senses) left me deep in thought. Nothing is left beautiful i feel. All but is a facade. Until someone stood out to show me the exception i will not accept the world. I dun think it is the correct time to get subjected to this taint. Even by the slightest bit. I shld be studying. I should be enjoying the final few moments of my "childhood". Yawns. Those who are studying. Pls dun complian anymore. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 9:31 PM Wednesday, March 4, 2009 long time pal. Ord comes and the next phase of life kicks in. Well not really. The interim b4 life starts kicks in. And so i started working. For this bank. Repeatedly i did the same task over and over again. I look at what i am doing and wondered. "How different is this from the life i had just a few mths ago?" oh gawd. Im tired. 6mths. aha this is worse den ord. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 11:36 PM |