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Tuesday, February 17, 2009 Code Geass is really one good anime that twistes and distorts my mine. I really cant stop thinking of the story. It's really a nice anime to watch. I wonder why Gundam OO is so overated. As compared to the story i hate to say it.. Code Geass beats everything else. Even deathnote i feel. Last day of my contract tmr. Lol have quite alot of fun going arnd sg. Tho the admin side is pretty cock up. But im all used to such cock ups. SAF has taught me well. Well gotta make some detours tmr.. Before i start with the remnants of my assignment. Hehe Gotta get a 1mth contact signed for my next job. Oh well i wonder if it's gonna be a right choice.. 1mth of contract. Wad's gonna happen after tat. HOpefully i can find another job when the time comes. The search for cash continues.. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 10:45 PM Tuesday, February 10, 2009 Good things happen.. when u are out of the army... I recieved this from my regular today. It reads, "I have admired your work ethics and garang attitude. I've always felt taht you shld had been posted to OCS instead. Thanks for all your outstanding contributions to our wing. I can say, that you are one of the best instr we ever had. Good luck to your studies...." Well when i read his text, i almost teared. This was the first time i felt so appreciated for the time and work i've put in as an instructor. Most of the time the "I AM ZAI" has always been mutually exclusive. Im the only one who felt tat i was. At least i thot i was the only one. I knew i have always worked for nothing, but i told myself all the time, im doing this for my own acknowledgement and self-improvement. It was a painful experience working so hard.. and long without any recognition and reward. And finally something official comes telling me that i've been valued. Im sad and happy both at once. Happy for obvious reasons... sad for why such recognition have to come only after i left. Bittersweet..... Anwiay i've passed my TP today. I was pretty ready to retake.. butwell lady luck was on my side. I am ZAI. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 10:32 PM Friday, February 6, 2009 All journeys come to an end. Im having this strange feel as i typed this entry. A feel neither bitter nor sweet. A feel of neither excitment nor boredom. A feel neither glee nor disappointing. It has been a yr and 10mths, since i last crossed over as a civilian to a soldier. I can still remember how things were back den, during enlistment. We looking back at our family as they left us on the island so mysterious to all, with a look of helplessness, with a look of anticipating doom. The days passed, and we trained ourselves to fight, in all conditions. Fight, is a big world. It's not just about firing of rifles, brandishing of knives and throwing of punches. The fight for survival doesnt just apply to all that, although it was often literally translated in the army. Taken a closer look, a deeper thought, i feel that we, man had been given an orientation to the understanding of this single word eariler than anyone else. I feel strong. Both physically and mentally. I can take on anything, any person, anytime. I've grown and i've matured. Despite all the curse and swears we've all given, due to our bosses, our man, our colleagues, our lives; at the end of the day, i wonder if all will be able to come to a consensus, that this yr and 10mths have been fruitful? Yes you may not have enjoyed this time, but im sure it wud have benefited you in ways u may not have noticed. Im just one of the lucky few to have spotted these benefits. Im glad im a man. Im glad I went through the army. My frens, my comrades in padding, shin guard, forearm guard, groin guard, head guard and boxing gloves, im glad to have became an instructor with you, although there are some whom i do not wan to associate with and too do not acknowledge u as one of us. Im glad to have went through this segment of my life together. Jason Kai Lun kenneth Shin loong Huang Yu Justin Feldman Ewen Junwei It is my honor to have known you, trained with you, fought with you and worked with you. As we go seperate ways tmr, i will remember every bit of the time spent with you people together. Thankyou Injury Check list: 1)Groin 2)Right Knee 3)Left shoulder 4)Pemernant Head damage Newly updated: 1)Stronger mine 2)Stronger body 3)Equiped with BJJ Muay Thai TKD Krav Maga Akido Judo and all sorts of Close Combat Skills 4)A vulgar tongue (gonna be nerfed after next patch) 5)Bigger guts 6)A matured mind ord lo i'm so sure of what i feel inside 12:52 AM |