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Wednesday, December 31, 2008 im allowing the last day of 08 pass by just like tat. And i mean it. Just like tat. Well but come to think abt it. What's so special abt the last day of the yr. Lol. U still eat when u are hungry. Slp when u are tired. Wake up the next day, yes tho it's an addition to the yr clock, u still... eat when u are hungry slp when u are tired. Nothing has changed. Being in NS has really ceased all my abilities to tell time. I cant really remember if it was 07 april when i enlisted or was it 08. Yea come to closer thinking.. it's 07 and a milestone must have passed eva since. 2yrs gone in an instnace. well not yet. but pretty soon. Have i grown in anyway? I wouldnt really look at 08 as one time spent. However the entire NS package shld be deem as one collective time spent, and i assure myself, yes i've matured. Compared to how i used to be.. back den in JC, when i was working and waiting for results, my perspective in life have widened by an considerable amount. Thank you NS. Gogo. 1mth left to go. Redemption is soon to be mine. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 6:53 PM Wednesday, December 17, 2008 im feeling all cranky after dosing myself with 3cans of red bull. Now i do feel like a bull. Sometimes life can be really be so dramatic. It just feels like you're watching the events pop by endlessly on the TV. Many NSFs got their share of shitty times during their earlier days in the army; when they are full of zeal and estasy abt the entire thing. However there are a grp of unfortunate ones who gets a taste of such, when they are closing in to the end of their army life. And i do happen to be one of the unlucky ones. And here i am in the office while im supposed to book out, serving the 2nd of my extras out of the 14 i've gotten, becos of something really stupid. It was a long story i wouldnt wan to mention. "Whatever doesnt kill me makes me stronger"; this phrase have never felt so real. Tho many may have doubted the "from boys to man" thing in the army, to me i guess i've became pretty manly after so much trouble. I really feel prepared for the real world now. Well it's weird that im actually being so optimistic after so many crap has happened. Perhaps this time it really ran so much out of proportion tat it made me go crazy enough to function exacly the opposite of wad the usual me wud have; to be extrememly pessimistic. Sigh im all tonned down. Chills relax. Wait for ord. But im really glad to know that there're people in my unit tat really care and will protect me; although there are those who do the opposite, but luckily their existence is of no relevance to me, neither is it to anyone else nor the rest of the world. Well let's just push all the remaining troubles i'll have to face to next yr and exhilarate for what is to come for the remnants of this yr; tmr's gonna be my last working day!~ Enuf said. One need no explainations is required further to prove my stand. 14full days to enjoy myself. How to, i have no idea. It's time to pick up the phone, dial some numbers to ask for some company... i'm so sure of what i feel inside 9:53 PM |