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Tuesday, November 11, 2008 As the clock ticks down to the final few moments before i turn 20 officially, there are some things i wud really like to say. My dad was at home from work. He said to me. Nong (he calls me tat since 20yrs ago) wanna catch some crabs tmr?? It's a normal sentence. But it was filled with warmth andan agenda to make me happy. Perhaps he remembers it's my bday tmr. Im sure he wud have remembered. Im his only son afterall. You know sometimes, ur parents will play with you when u are young, listen to ur worries, give u the better meat and they take the left overs, it's nt that they are too free or they simply loved the dry areas of the chicken breast or the stench of fish stomachs. It was a compromise they are willing to compensate for the sake of their children. Im glad i could feel that side of my father today. So he asked me out, to do a particular something i would have been extremely enthusiatic about.. maybe ten yrs ago. Well believe me he made me a jungle boy back den. I turned him down. I really had plans elsewhere. However i asked myself, why only till the 12NOV will he show such concern? Well i appreciated his offer but sadly that only proves how distant we are over the yrs. 20yrs of existence i've moved on a distance of 2decades. However he was still trailing 2 decades behind. It's tougher to lose something u have den to never have it at all. Who's more lucky? the abandoned child or an orphan? Of cos my situation isnt really tat bad. Infact it's a million times better den others who are more unfortunate. Im just sad that my father has to be such a.. im afraid i have to say.. a loser. Well a few zillion congratulations to people like aaron cheewee louis and many others of my brothers in arms who have finally gottan their salvation on this day. The 11th NOV. After spending almost 2yrs of life standing still while everyone else moves on, i wonder if they find it difficult to really get back to life. Pun intended. I still have a couple of months. I wudnt want to think of the things i'll have to go through tho, else these ouple of months are gonna look very much like a couple of years. HAaa.. Let's just take time to enjoy the peace and serenity.. while it lasts.. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 7:28 PM |