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Thursday, August 14, 2008 The word for today: CHarlie. Well being an instrutor has never been so great. Afterall, i guess i've lost pretty much of my drive to work as enthusiastically as before. Reason simple. I can smell ORD alr. To be more exact, it's actually in 140plus days. Okay, lets have a break and bring the time back to hmm around one yr and a mth ago. Well my PC told us to strive to be an officer, so u'd be able to touch the lives of others in ur stay in NS. At least tat was the only form of satisfaction one can eva get doing the NS, he said. However i never became an officer; i thot a CCI could have been alot easier to accomplish the feat, since i'll get to interact with many others who are too serving our dear nation. I taught diligently, tried my best everytime i had a lesson, got scolded so many times by my seniors but i never loathe, even for once; i really wanted to learn as many as i can from dem so i can become the best instructor one can eva find, at least in the entire CCTW. Tat was my drive, for as long as i can remember being a CCI, just to fulfill a very simple wish. However i've never felt accomplished in any way. I worked when i could have slacked, infact i was being over Garang over the entire thing, only to be seen as "a possession to the WEST TEAM in which I(my boss) can make full use of in everywhere" and im still being used in every single way. Sometimes i really wonder if im a instructor, a super saikang planner and worker or a Clerk. And so i got stucked in the West team, having to travel everyday to a corner of the country from where i stay in yishun, when i could have spend only a fraction of the time used for travelling currently, reporting to other camps in the North team. I didnt loathe cos i believed in OCS, my unit, and my trainees. I believed that they can give me the satisfaction i want. For so 3batches i have taught, Delta, Foxtrot; Bravo, Echo; Alpha, Golf. I've always felt i could have done better, since the response i got was never spontaneous. In the end there was still some who hated CCT; my lesson. To a pt i've felt a decrease even in my own standard, I was never the instructor i was previously animore. Mediocrity was wad i felt i've became. Until today. Charlie did great for their grading. Well something v well expected after all the practice we had. However, im pretty sure that i've a place in their heart as an instructor. Well at least until they ORD; i know i will remember me. It felt great finally knowing that the effort u have placed have blossomed into results that have never tasted so sweet. Charlie may have brought back the flame in me. Next to deal with. Hotel wing. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 7:38 PM |