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Tuesday, November 27, 2007 nice songs to fill my night here on the 27 nov. Melancholic ones as well. He is really so talented... Tried talking. but i wonder how much that has helped. I guess its still up to myself. Give me some time. Tired day. Did lots of physical stuff today. Just to do mroe tmr. well im not forced to do dem. I was enjoying wad i was doing. Run Gym Bball Badminton and PICKLEBALL. Sister's out to reuben's wake. Left all alone at home. Having so many tots running thru my head right now... Rest in peace for eternity. sigh.. Shld i slp? work wear's still in the washing machine.. how? guess i'd need to wait till its done so i can throw it into the dryer. wad shld i do tmr? Run and GYM again.. gawd. Sat's gonna be busy. OCS Sierra 8 to 10. Muay Thai at 2 to 3.30. Gotta give MMA a miss cos of Krav Maga later at 4 to 8. long day. OFF on MONDAY! haa.. but still... 60weeks more i'm so sure of what i feel inside 9:59 PM Monday, November 26, 2007 i cant remember how many times i sighed today... my heart still hurts knowing that someone so young and so talented passed on just like a snap. In an instance, someone with that much potential, future, disappearing from the world. This really makes me thinking... why are some people still alive when people like him have to die so young. For the physical body that is no longer present, his works and spirit will exist forever... hopefully. Please check out www.reubenkee.com. I guess that's all i can do for him, and hopefully more will get to appreciate his works. Tho we've never met, neither have we spoke. But from my sister, you are seriously one of the few i'll put my hat down to. Rest in Peace Reuben. Sigh.. now iask myself, why am i feeling so sad. Maybe his passing does brings back some old memories.. but still.. sigh wadeva.. Went to 2SIR today.. and i had fun teaching breakfall.. tho my mood was alil down. Gonna go back to HQ for the remaining days for training.. SIGH not in the mood for anything... i'm so sure of what i feel inside 5:11 PM Sunday, November 25, 2007 very sad.. really very sad. If u have read the papers u wud have known abt the 5 who are still missing cos of the capsize accident. And one of them happens to be my sister's fren. A young man who is delicated to wadeva he does, exels in it. I've always liked the music he composed. I'll be praying for your safety. and as i contemplate for his safetly. ill news hit me that all 5 of the bodies have been found. sigh.. i just feel v sad. Its really comes in form of a sharp stab in my heart. Why do these things eva happen? i'm so sure of what i feel inside 10:25 AM Monday, November 19, 2007 and now i realised im missing so many things. FIRST my rave. SECOND all my animation. shaman king, vandread saiyuki. gosh.. who could i have lent em to. Such a stupid idiot to have just lent off things like that thinking that people will return the way i lent dem. STUPID IDIOT. anyway anyone that owes me anthing and happen to see this. i demand u to return it now. haa taught Echo wing this afternoon. DID my best. but their technique isnt v good. sigh so sad. am i that lousy? duty stuff tmr.. dun care. im watching initial d. was planning to watch the ring.. but dun lahh AFC quite dirty.. later i got companions to watch it with me at night.. eyer scary.. hahaaa.. busy busy.. esp end of week.. guard duty on friday. sat morning need to rush to ocs for lesson. den it's muay thai + mma again. whohoooo.. family going off on holiday on 25. hope they can kip their cool and dun quarrel anymore. yawnss and its gonna be 2weeks of lonely live alone in SG.. wad abt staying in? hehh.. 59more weeks to go whohoo. time is passing by soo quickly i'm so sure of what i feel inside 9:45 PM Sunday, November 18, 2007 Every part of my body still hurts. Serves me right for not going for mma for so long. But still i had fun yesterday.. tho it was really tiring. Super siens week. Had our first family discussion yesterday. Lots of revelations and sayings tho nothing seems to have changed nor have any problems been solved. Let's just hope nothing of this shit eva happens again. Sigh family family family Alright. I guess that's the end of the slackening period and life's gonna get busy again. Time's passing by quickly and im kinda happy about it. Hoping for FEB 08 to come quick. haa.. HERO's coming out yay. but again.. the usual problem... who's free? i'm so sure of what i feel inside 9:45 PM Monday, November 12, 2007 feeling so vexxed. sigh stupid family. While everything seems normal from the outside, its all turbulence and unrest i see here from the inside.. A time bomb that will go off any time. All thanks to my dad. Like i always said, i'll be a perfect father if i did wadeva my dad didnt and not do wadeva my dad did. I'll be so much a better mother i guess.. all cos i have a perfect role model. Bday. haa.. of allcocks that had happened.. i reported to camp without realising my off is still valid. And i was kinda treated like a loser for a moment. But still those guys were nice enuf to offer me free breakfast. Rained so heavily as i booked out an hr after i booked in (and damned i forgot to sign out), and i almost got struck by lightning on the way out. Luckily it was the tree that got hit. Scary. Wadeva. Hope laotian ensures that nothing happens to me. If it does sigh.. Lots of regrets. Many gratitudes unpaid. Now that im 19, i really hoped that i am like 10yrs ahead of time, so i can earn enuf money to solve all problems. Sigh. 6 more years.. Hectic ones i guess...... i'm so sure of what i feel inside 9:14 PM Saturday, November 10, 2007 cant find my default zboard so i guess i'll haveta do this entry on my gaming piece. aha perhaps i've been using the com far too long.. the graphic engine seems abit crazy already.. oh my. Well.. of all the stupid things that happened. I still managed to go to my Car show this afternoon. haa Thx to my v nice sister who paid + accompany + droved me to the show. The paint job of the cars were really nice and the after market body kits rocked too. ahha.. cant wait to own a car like that. But sigh, rarely do we realise the pain of owning a car.. esp the one i have in mind... SEE MUST STUDY HARD!! SO NEXT TIME CAN EARN MORE MONEY BUY BIG CARS. Anyway took lots of nice pictures also.haha.. The only bad thing was that i had to make do with local models.. AGAIN. sigh bad figure bad looks. Well tho there were a few nice ones.. The import models?? Guess i was there at the wrong timing. OH AND i got my first sight of some real DORIFTO action. COOL! Had been rather nuah for the last 2weeks.. Skipped all my lessons while giving myself tonnes of stupid reasons to console myself abt the lost. Sigh NS has really brought out the losing side of me. Oh well.. somehow i guess i've managed to pick myself up from where i fell 2weeks ago. ha. 60more weeks to go. Got so much new things i wanna learn and do better in the mean time before i get back to life(live). Well i guess if i really did use my time well, this 2yrs wudnt have been so much a waste, infact i may be so much ahead in terms for everything.. cept in terms of studies. Try to learn as much as i can for the remaining 60weeks and be just like MB. Look into the future. Into the long run. Smile more often too. "What are u doing now?" "I guess im preparing for live my life 2yrs later." i'm so sure of what i feel inside 10:44 PM Friday, November 9, 2007 THE ROCK HAS COME BACK with another hit. well not exactly another. But ya. The Game Plan is really a ncie show and many shld catch it. Humourous, touching, engaging. Everything under the sun. Nice work linking things which are so so different together to form a nice picture. Off to NUS later to meet julie and aaron. Yawns. In the past i may have been thrilled with this. But for now, i wonder wad has numbed me to much. Super import nights? SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....... U free i not free. I free u not free. Everyone not free.. watch wad. Entire Week of training next week. also dunno train for wad. Demo for who to watch..... getting v lethagic these days. Gonna skip mma and muay thai again tmr. HAHA HECK. no desire. no push no motivation. Stay at home slp. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 10:31 AM Wednesday, November 7, 2007 those guys must be saying how chaokeng i can be right now. but still dun care. Sick means take MC lor bohoho.. Long weekend. Tho it could have been longer. Sigh.. Bday off on monday but still got called back for some stupid training for some dunno wad demo shit. Sigh apparantly they say that i shld be happy since "i was one of the few chosen once for the demo". Ya i only care abt my off. Got off in lieu not. Heck. Close my eyes. Pass one day count one day. Im starting to enjoy sleeping more den eva b4. Well maybe that is so cos dreaming is the only thing that feels so real for now. I can only dream. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 7:17 PM Friday, November 2, 2007 Yawnss.. I hope i dun regret not going for MMA today. Super shagged out. Just when i thot i can be like free to slack arnd in HQ today. In the end still have to help with teaching. Super Import Nights is on next weekend. Gosh. i wonder if anyone is free to go down to watch it with me. Take pics and more pics HAHAAA. sia lah. IMPORT TUNER CARS LEH. Dun play play. IMPORTED MODELS ALSO. HAHA finally i wun have to get stucked with taking pics of ugly local models and ugly stock cars. COOL!! YAY long weekend coming up. SO hoping for next week to come. but as much as i hoped so... i kinda want it to come later also. sigh.. sis going back to CHHEEENA alr. SO SIEN. come back shld come back longer right? hOR HOR HOR? C&R 7Man team is crap. Control simi shit. Restrain simi shit. JUST HUUT LAH. tired.. but still. Need to meet my lvling target. GOGOGOGO i'm so sure of what i feel inside 6:54 PM |