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Thursday, October 4, 2007 ... Wad a nightmare... Foxtrot literally screwed their grading and it really didnt really reflect well of me. Sigh... Just when i thot they are the best... But who to blame. SAF's lousy scheduling? Who cares.. Bad performance means InCharge's fault already. No other room for negotiation... damn.. Just hope Delta can show me something different on Tues next week... sigh.. Cant believe im actually feeling disappionted for some NS crap. Was dazing on the train omw home when this suddenly hit me. Was like asking myself wad can i do to make my life rewarding. I thot. and thot. and thot. Well i guess it doesnt really matter wad i do. It may be a flying front breakfall, a joke, a little chat, a speech to motivate the trainees. Wad matters would have been the chances of u being able to touch their hearts. Well PC leonard did say in bmt that imagine the amount of heart u would have touched as a BMT instructor. 200man per platoon per batch. 4 batches that will be 800 young man. And true enuf.. for the things he have done im sure i'll at least remember him for the next few yrs. Well will that eva happen to me? Will all my trainees eva remember me? The Crazy guy who tried to jump so high so i cna impress them with my breakfall? The guy who dun really care abt any pains here and there even when it comes to Demo? I wonder. Haa think abt it. U may have done quite a good job hew. For wad has happened.. i only knew u have touched not just a year, a decade, but the entire of my life. Missing you always. Tekong challenge tmr. Lol wake up early.. rush all the way to tekong just for an 8km run. Book out latest at 1.30.. go home slp rest wow.. DEN GO FOR MMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Weekend schedule? Feel like asking someone out. But again.. most shld be not free. Oh well. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 7:04 PM |