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Thursday, September 13, 2007 Hearing Gekkouka again and again makes me feel like singing it.. Tho i really cant. I never seem to get sick of that song. maybe its the tune tat really suits my mood most of the time. Have so much in my mind and i really wanna pen all of it down. But i wonder if i can. I must really thank Friendster. Went thru all the comments writen by people who are, were, in my life. Some managed to come deeper. Others are starting to drift apart. One left me completely. All the tiny little things that they tagged about, brought back significant memories. People esp guansheng, julie, joce.. and of cos hews.... Reminiscing, i cant help but laugh, smile, and even drop a tear. We've all changed as much as we've not. I wonder.. but somehow the life in the past always looked sweeter and brighter den the current one we have. As much as we knew these changes can be painful and wanted the happy memories back for now, we knew it will be impossible. No matter how tight we have held on to these past, we... have to move on. From a northlander to a Cat High boy and to an Innovian. From a Badminton player to a runner. From being good frens with poh all the way; Daoing joce for one entire yr; having fun with Hews; not talking to Jul all the way until i graduate from Pri school. To knowing Gs from the first day in cathigh; remain so connected as a clique... till now, being a NSF... many has indeed changed. With things moving in and out of my life.. i wonder wad lies ahead in my future. Yy. Gs. mong. aaron. Jul. Joce. Hew. For all that had happened and will be happening. The memories will always be there no matter where u can be. Took a half day off today. Had tonnes of time for myself, and it really felt comfortable being able to spend the time with no one but myself. Im starting to love being alone. And the thot of going back to work tmr esp at OCS seems so appealing all of a sudden. It may be bcos of muaythai in the evening; bcos of jessica teng and her garang-looking partner; bcos of the rest that really recharged me. I wonder why. Lots of questions and funny feelings in me tat i cant really seem to explain too. BUt for at least i still doubt if i can teach. Of cos i can. Just tat no one may be able to hear me. I wanna see how my future is forged thru the path i take. But sadly i think it's not v possible. Not till the 8th of feb.. 09. Life at a stand still. While everyone else is moving on. how sad.... i'm so sure of what i feel inside 8:22 PM |