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Saturday, September 29, 2007 MMA is fun. BUt tiring.. Super shagged. Learnt alot of new things that many wudnt have in their lives. Esp for NSFs. Getting super busy nowadays. Dun even have time to think abt things. Tat's good. Gettting so tired that going out seems to be such a chore also. Totally sien diao. Stay at home be hermit play game run lift weights watch tv and slp. Best life. HAHA others all no need to care liao. V fast vfast. Time passes as fast as me. WHOOPS tat's me 1yr ago. Now im fat hehehh i'm so sure of what i feel inside 1:32 AM Wednesday, September 26, 2007 Tired.. felt like a trainee today. Breakfall breakfall breakfall... Delta was fun as usual. Love Delta. Tho Foxtrot has better techniques. But wadeva.. OCS is good. Saw the new Hotel Female Cadets.. Sigh... *Shakes last finger. 30SCE tmr. I've seen the best.. now for the worst.. God... Sibei shag. Hands trembling alr. Anyway Jenrinetan. If u eva read this. Just to tell u i dun really remember much. But times were enjoyable and has been fun back den i'm so sure of what i feel inside 5:36 PM Saturday, September 22, 2007 OMG D.M.C is so cool. U guys shld DL the song~ haha BBQ was fun. Love cooking. Free meal too. Its always good to do something different from the usual way of life. Yawns.. Do u understnad wad i meant by the truth?. I doubt so. On guard 24hrs tmr. See ya on sunday i'm so sure of what i feel inside 12:27 AM Thursday, September 20, 2007 ha. wad a sucky feeling. To know someone is feeling super depressed and u really wished to make her feel better. But she just doesnt need ur company to do that. TOO BAD. Oh well. say le im not the person to listen to her plight anymore. Lala. Some toot hit me with his pugil stick when i was doing refereeing. Now my pinky feels so out of place, hope its not dislocated lOL. OCS TMR! YAY DELTA. DELTA! Alright a Garang grp of (female?)trainees does make their instructor feel like teaching dem. Aniway today is like So qiao. Saw so many ppl. First at lhatib MRT was sheep. next on train i saw Joshua, YES and HE IS the person who is making my fren super sad. next at Keat Hong was Eugene. Next at Kranji were Willie and Chee wee. And i tot i saw Ang Si yuan in SAFPU also.. must be my imagination.. ANGSIYUAN = MP ahha dun joke with me. Pigs just cant fly and climb trees.. or do a side breakfall or front backfall... lol. Die my Side breakfall getting lower and lower.. DO SOMETHING. I MUST TAKE OVER THE NAME OF THE FLYING MALAYU(CHINESE) Things to do tmr. Remember to ask the sarges at Keat Hong to prepare grading form. Remember to buy some stuffs for Cheewee at OCS. wahhh Must remember!!!! Life's GOOD and it passes FAST. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 7:07 PM Wednesday, September 19, 2007 Whuhooo recieved a mail from NTU saying they've reserved a place for me in Aerospace in the new academic yr Oct'09!!! YAY 09. wtf BOhohoo sibei no face today. Tore Kai's CCI T during a demo today. Trainees was like WTF instructor. hAhAaa loL have to tell dem see u do demo too seriously will become like tat. zzz face dunno throw and put to where. ahah Good lah.. teaching unit man can be quite fun also, tho they are really monkeys. Sigh i must have been such a busybody to have even asked. Not a close friend to look into alreadi? Guess so. People change but its okay! aHAa I have my own life! As an instructor. So, why bother? lalaa... Im eager to meet the new people who have yet to come. Soon v soon. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 9:10 PM Tuesday, September 18, 2007 Let me look at my eye. Argh im still a terminator. Let me hear me speak. Argh cannot speak liao "Instructor U CARRY ON." Stupid Officer. Think he commission liao big fish, need a private to fish him upside down den he know who is boss. Tell u le appointment is bigger den rank. U wan play rank i play appointment with u. Stupid Loser. Sien. At the commanding level in the army, this is all the shit u can get from people who has rank. Man in 4SIR are all monkeys... had so much of a time playing games with dem loL. Sien..Feels extremely uncomfortable having to ask all the captains to go thru the same shit, afterall they are not the ones responsible for the chaos... Stupid dirty jobs I have to do. But at least everyone managed to show the standard here and there.. Looking forward to the grading for them. Come my trainees. Shine to make me look good.. BOHOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. haa sudden change of plans. Haveta go back to HQ tmr afternoon.. for some interview shit.. initially i was like sia lah interview. hhaa who's gonna get charged. Oh well i think its for some stupid shit stuff we just havta go thru as a NSF. But at least i can gym out back at home base after tat :) Life's GOOD... "U have to constantly look out for stepping stones in ur NS life to help u pass the time and help u keep going...." -Sgt dunno who, Charlie Coy, 4SIR i'm so sure of what i feel inside 8:56 PM Monday, September 17, 2007 Im terminator... HAaa.. loL taught thru delta with some eye problems. but for Delta i risk to give everything. Most Yalams shld be stripped off of all leadership roles and responsiblilty cos they cant shoulder any of dem. Own unit ask junior from other team to teach.(my batchmate. I was teaching another grp of ppl. was ok cos i was from the same team as that yalam.) Wtf. Irresponsible shit. Thats just for one. The other one? walked arnd as if he is some big fuck. So many errors here and there but didnt even bother to assist me. Nahbei. Yawns. going to see him again tmr. Simply cant work with these losers. i wud rather dem disappear die somewhere out of my sight. Hah.. reading the same chapter of Rave always touch my heart. So sad Gale has to die after he just met he's son. "Im always living in ur heart,""Life is filled with countless routes for u to take, which ever one to go depends solely on ur thought and choice,""No matter which one u take, never should it be done in the name of fate nor destiny, but ur decision and concious.""So move on..."(pardon my translation, the manga is in chinese) loL may sound kuku to u but the chapter is really touching.. Ahhh imagine urself seeing ur father finally after he left ur family 10yrs ago, with so much doubts and uncertainties u wish u ask. And finally when u met him, he dies trying to protect u from harm. Worse still, he promised to go home with u after the everything just abt like 5mikes ago. Groove Advanture Rave~! i'm so sure of what i feel inside 8:08 PM Thursday, September 13, 2007 Hearing Gekkouka again and again makes me feel like singing it.. Tho i really cant. I never seem to get sick of that song. maybe its the tune tat really suits my mood most of the time. Have so much in my mind and i really wanna pen all of it down. But i wonder if i can. I must really thank Friendster. Went thru all the comments writen by people who are, were, in my life. Some managed to come deeper. Others are starting to drift apart. One left me completely. All the tiny little things that they tagged about, brought back significant memories. People esp guansheng, julie, joce.. and of cos hews.... Reminiscing, i cant help but laugh, smile, and even drop a tear. We've all changed as much as we've not. I wonder.. but somehow the life in the past always looked sweeter and brighter den the current one we have. As much as we knew these changes can be painful and wanted the happy memories back for now, we knew it will be impossible. No matter how tight we have held on to these past, we... have to move on. From a northlander to a Cat High boy and to an Innovian. From a Badminton player to a runner. From being good frens with poh all the way; Daoing joce for one entire yr; having fun with Hews; not talking to Jul all the way until i graduate from Pri school. To knowing Gs from the first day in cathigh; remain so connected as a clique... till now, being a NSF... many has indeed changed. With things moving in and out of my life.. i wonder wad lies ahead in my future. Yy. Gs. mong. aaron. Jul. Joce. Hew. For all that had happened and will be happening. The memories will always be there no matter where u can be. Took a half day off today. Had tonnes of time for myself, and it really felt comfortable being able to spend the time with no one but myself. Im starting to love being alone. And the thot of going back to work tmr esp at OCS seems so appealing all of a sudden. It may be bcos of muaythai in the evening; bcos of jessica teng and her garang-looking partner; bcos of the rest that really recharged me. I wonder why. Lots of questions and funny feelings in me tat i cant really seem to explain too. BUt for at least i still doubt if i can teach. Of cos i can. Just tat no one may be able to hear me. I wanna see how my future is forged thru the path i take. But sadly i think it's not v possible. Not till the 8th of feb.. 09. Life at a stand still. While everyone else is moving on. how sad.... i'm so sure of what i feel inside 8:22 PM Monday, September 10, 2007 Feeling so SO SO SO SO VEXED. Perhaps i really had a misconception of my current job aka NS life. Did i really overlooked my job as something tat serious tat i'll really have to put in my best? If im right why arent everybody else doing it SO my life can be made easier? Crap. FUCK IT man. LOW and DOwn. Dun care le. wanna chu stunt right. I wud rather not work with u guys. I do everything myself. Sigh. Surprisingly when i start to count down. Time seems to snail down so much. Now tat its 69weeks... its starting to seem like 69yrs... Perhaps i shld go by each milestone. Like ppl's birthdays... 25Sep.. 16 oct.. 12nov... den festive seasons... Hari raya... NEw Yr.. chinese new yr.. Special dates.. 22feb.. Bithdays again blah blah blah.. crap. im losing myself... i'm so sure of what i feel inside 7:05 PM Saturday, September 8, 2007 Did something real mean yesterday.. and it really made me feel so guilty. But wad prissy said was really true lah.. if i havent done tat i guess their discipline lv wudnt have been tat good today.... The days pass by so quickly. This marks another week of CCI life. Tonnes of stuffs happened... mostly unhappy things. Sigh realised its so hard to speak ur mind in my vocation. there's so many backstabbers, news reporters everywhere. Things are so politcal that u must really watch every move and every word u say. For me? i guess i shld start to say nothing. NExt week's pretty slack. Thankfully. National Muay Thai Champs.. hAha im looking forward to it. Half day for thurs!! YAY. Jen say's she;s gonna bring me arnd NTU. dunno real or not. heeh Caught the rat show with jocey today. Pretty nice and enjoyable. i really liked it. Thanks joce for the company aniway. ha SAT.. i still havent got any replies from aaron and i really wonder if we're still meeting tmr. Sigh. 1408 tmr!! hope it'll be a good show. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 12:35 AM Tuesday, September 4, 2007 thx to the smart ass who brought the rifle out, now i have to be extra tactical when i bring in all my contraband items to camp. And that probably means hell during guard duties too. And my next duty happens to fall on the 22nd. loL. 20th is my duty stuff day.. WOAH. Wasted 2hrs of my time at OCS today. Delta Wing didnt turn up for lessons. :( oh well, i was shagged enuf alr. Perhaps i shld feel happy about dem not coming. Lost to someone i shldnt have today. PuI.... Stupid cocky ass. hope he gets killed by his own dua pao one day. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 9:35 PM Monday, September 3, 2007 I take back my complains abt going to OCS. HEHEEEE after just one day of experience there i really felt tat it was heaven. 1) The food was delicious. Couldnt have found better fruit juices elsewhere 2) There's a nice track and environment for me to do my runs 3) THe library is totally empty for my naps + psp 4) The trainees are disciplined and u cna expect more standard from dem. and and and and.. Did i tell u i managed to teach female cadets??? AHAAAaa. and she's not bad looking surprisingly. Woooo.. life's good. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 8:57 PM Sunday, September 2, 2007 And it really begins. Life as a True CCI. Alone. In solitude. but still Strong. Have anyone hoped tat the past was now and now was the past? Its complicated. And i had tat kind of feeling now. So many things u had in the past u hope u can have it now. And the things u have now u hoped it was left out in the past. Oh well. Lots and Lots of stuffs coming up(things i dun really wan to do) will soon kip me supre held up. Yawns. the month of sep.. so many things seems to be happening. Guard Duty, Duty stuff, International Muay Thai Cham..... blah blah blah. OCS and PLC for the entire week. It's gonna be supersuper busy for me. Teach teach teach teach...... NS, WOW, NS, WOW, NS, WOW.................................... until 8thFEB'09 Hopefully. 70 more Weeks to go i'm so sure of what i feel inside 8:22 PM |