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Wednesday, March 21, 2007 Desperately trying to fill up the gaps in my present life. Yawns. I've always said. Life, by itself is pretty empty. It's the things u do tat'll gradually fill it up. Life will then be memorable and well spent. Oh well. Its hard doing so tho. Singlehandedly.... Yawns. Bleah. cant say wad i wan to say. KNNB....CCB. sorry for the profanities. But i couldnt get wad i wanna say out of my mouth. PUI LAH KNNB CCB.. See there it goes again. I shld find more things to do. If not i'll think too much if not "nothing de also let me thing until become got thing." Im.. invited back to IJC this friday to do some Umpiring.. for the college's InterDepartment games. OMgoddess. i Wonder wad im doing. Hopefully im up to the task. Its time to read up on the rules of tennis.... but it'll be cool to watch MR CHU HIEN MENG play tennis. well i dun think he'll be playing lah. He only likes to go to gym to work out. My guess. Anyway. Im hearing the same comments out of the mouths of different ppl. "U better enjoy ur life b4 getting into NS." HA. Tell me how to do it when there's nothing to enjoy even for now. I may be the first to say so but probably NS is life for me at this pt of time, in this useless 2pig 2yrs of crap in which our female counterparts will have a 2yr leap infront of us. Im not complaining. NS is a responsibility we're stucked to do but will ultimately fulfill at our fullest, even if its at our own lost. Aniway i bet i'll enjoy it since there's no other opportunity cost. I wanna study V V V V SOON.. Graduate.. have a job. Lessen eveyone in my family's burden. Own a car.. Have my own LIFE. Crap since i love studying so much, i may as well consider taking A lvs again.. FOR FUN. Zzzzzz BORING. THink abt it. Life is empty. And no matter how many one may try to do, you'll only cover up it's distinctive nature, nevergone and everlasting. And the sad thing is.. U cant just Die like that. Cos in Life there's still Pride, Dignity, Responsibility and also the Sentimental Value of ur existence, not to urself, but to those arnd u who will very much weep if u just die like tat. It's gonna be a long way to go. See thats why i said i think too much. I shld really just find more ways to coverup LIFE's "distinctive nature", well, if i put it tat way. Sorry but im cynical. Im a pessimist. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 11:34 PM |