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Saturday, March 31, 2007 A day to commemorate. It was my choice. I was quite sure abt it. But somehow when i watched the malay barber do his job. I cant help but feel alil sad. Oh well. I wonder why. i cant describe it. But somehow it just hurts. Strangely i do feel to have a clearer mind now. Well at least my brains are closer to the air outside now. Yawns. My wrists feeling better. So i did a lil tennis tgt. HAaa.. with someone i've seen only the second time. And the first was.. erm. 3yrs back. COol huh.. But its not a one on one. There's still Ann chong WAHHAA. She cant play very well tho. So i was acting like a nice guy tryin to get her shots right. At the first place i dun think im v qualified to do tat. kns.. woah. i feel so COOL noww. literally. tmr going out run with POOOH aHAHA. okay great. im going into ARMY SOON! i'm so sure of what i feel inside 1:12 AM A day to commemorate. It was my choice. I was quite sure abt it. But somehow when i watched the malay barber do his job. I cant help but feel alil sad. Oh well. I wonder why. i cant describe it. But somehow it just hurts. Strangely i do feel to have a clearer mind now. Well at least my brains are closer to the air outside now. Yawns. My wrists feeling better. So i did a lil tennis tgt. HAaa.. with someone i've seen only the second time. And the first was.. erm. 3yrs back. COol huh.. But its not a one on one. There's still Ann chong WAHHAA. She cant play very well tho. So i was acting like a nice guy tryin to get her shots right. At the first place i dun think im v qualified to do tat. kns.. woah. i feel so COOL noww. literally. tmr going out run with POOOH aHAHA. okay great. im going into ARMY SOON! i'm so sure of what i feel inside 1:12 AM A day to commemorate. It was my choice. I was quite sured abt it. But somehow when i watched the malay barber do his job. I cant help but feel alil sad. Oh well. I wonder why. i cant describe it. But somehow it just hurts. Strangely i do feel to have a clearer mind now. Well at least my brains are closer to the air outside now. Yawns. My wrists feeling better. So i did a lil tennis tgt. HAaa.. with someone i've seen only the second time. And the first was.. erm. 3yrs back. COol huh.. But its not a one on one. There's still Ann chong WAHHAA. She cant play very well tho. So i was acting like a nice guy tryin to get her shots right. At the first place i dun think im v qualified to do tat. kns.. woah. i feel so COOL noww. literally. tmr going out run with POOOH aHAHA. okay great. im going into ARMY SOON! i'm so sure of what i feel inside 1:12 AM Thursday, March 29, 2007 3rnds of fartlek. 5 times of slopes. All i can manage out of my unft body. gosh.. i sucked. I must get back my form NEXT WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For the sake of Glory And Honor. NS HERE I COME. ok im nuts. Im not tat serious at NS. i just say as tho i am. Got across this 70s German song. called Moskau.. moscow actually.. as implied.. its abt the place. Aniway. I tot it was fairly nice.. and i slowly liked it more after listening more to it. It was writen by this band called Dschinghis Khan, Genghis Khan in German actually. A band with a rather sad history. They got tgt in the 70s for a few yrs. Seperated bcos of some conflict. And in between these yrs till present, their lead singer died. When they finally came back to sing in 2005, it was a real hit. Sold out crowds here and there. Unfortunately, another of their members died of cancer in 2006. Wad a reality. but i was thinkin actually, the other day. When i saw this v cliche scene. Of a couple parting in terms of life and death after they finally got tgt after 20yrs of seperations. Such bitter sweet scenario, I realise, was rather beautiful in a way. At least after now when she has left u, however painful it is to you, there's onlie the good memories left in you. If she lived, who knows if the 2 will get into tiffs and in the end, the memories mutually have for each other will be hatred. Think abt it. Am i right? Perhaps im just finding a reason to console myself.. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzz BTW There are only excuses and reasons. No coincidents. If one is unwilling to put in any committment. Dun act like u do. The world will den with a better place, without ppl, who makes up emotions tat dun not exist. fake. v fake. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 12:26 AM Tuesday, March 27, 2007 It kinda bothers me alot. Im actually refering to that damaged wrist of mine. Its just 2weeks before my enlistment and i have to get the injury aggrevated. well at least it hurts more now. Cant do pushups cant do pullups. Gosh.. Better get it fixed soon.. I mean HOPE. Running at 3min/rnd pace is gay. We shld done it to 2 guys. loL. More running tmr! WHohooo. okay i admit. Im getting more and more himbo-ish. Who cares. its the government's fault aniway. Im like reading this WW2 book and it kinda informs me abt how badly armed SPore was back den. Just when everyone thought that Singapore Fell becos the cannons pted at the wrong direction... There was more. Singapore wud have still suffered the same fate even if those cannons are pting straight at the faces of the Japanese aniway. My guess. AHHAA. Stupid Colonial leaders back den... 13 More Days to Glory. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 12:22 AM Monday, March 26, 2007 It is 清明 today. So my family met up with the bigger family. Did some praying.. Giving of offerings to my ancestors. And i got to see You again. This strange feeling just struck me when i cleaned ur tablet. I wonder if u are feeling lonely. I guess this'll probably be the last time i'll get to see u for maybe the remaining of this yr. Dun think i'll be able make it down to see u again on the 28thofjuly.But i'l try my best. Just a few days ago i stumbled across some pictures we took. In my Album of Memoir i always called it, however hard i tried, i couldnt even fake out a smile. There's so much undone when u left. And im feeling sad for u. and for myself. I wonder if u're even there to hear my whines Sent inmy application finally.. Cracked my brains hard to get the essays done. For a moment i tot i was sending in my application to SMU. oh well. I seriously dun feel likehelpinganyone anymore. Itsawasteofmytime. I hate to say it but i dun wan to help u. YET i still did. Gosh wads with me. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 12:56 AM Thursday, March 22, 2007 One of the rare days when i woke up, feeling siens.. sorry i mean MORE siens and depressed. More of a in no mood for anithing. So i finally decided to do something tat'll probably cheer myself up. GO PLAY POOL. Sadly, unfortunately, coincidentally its also one of the days when all my friends arent here when i needed them. joce->working. Poh-> Dating. Julie->Haveta go class gathering. Gs->play pool alone is better. Mong->Injured so cant come out. Oh well.. so i decided to go alone. However, of all the surprises one could have eva expected, i didnt anticipate this to happen. Yu'an called to ask if im free for a movie. HOHOHO. Oh well, at least the movie we caught was quite amusing and it managed a few smiles and laughs from me. Thx Rowan Atkinson. But somehow i guess tat wasnt enuf, so i still went forth with my intial plans. Somehow Pooling alone was fun lah. Mananged to proof that i was capable of some new moves in tat time. cool. Well hopefully that wudnt be the case for the next few days... Fri:Training in IJC, Umpire for Interdepartment Tennis matches Sat:SPH RELAYS! i'm so sure of what i feel inside 8:20 PM Wednesday, March 21, 2007 Desperately trying to fill up the gaps in my present life. Yawns. I've always said. Life, by itself is pretty empty. It's the things u do tat'll gradually fill it up. Life will then be memorable and well spent. Oh well. Its hard doing so tho. Singlehandedly.... Yawns. Bleah. cant say wad i wan to say. KNNB....CCB. sorry for the profanities. But i couldnt get wad i wanna say out of my mouth. PUI LAH KNNB CCB.. See there it goes again. I shld find more things to do. If not i'll think too much if not "nothing de also let me thing until become got thing." Im.. invited back to IJC this friday to do some Umpiring.. for the college's InterDepartment games. OMgoddess. i Wonder wad im doing. Hopefully im up to the task. Its time to read up on the rules of tennis.... but it'll be cool to watch MR CHU HIEN MENG play tennis. well i dun think he'll be playing lah. He only likes to go to gym to work out. My guess. Anyway. Im hearing the same comments out of the mouths of different ppl. "U better enjoy ur life b4 getting into NS." HA. Tell me how to do it when there's nothing to enjoy even for now. I may be the first to say so but probably NS is life for me at this pt of time, in this useless 2pig 2yrs of crap in which our female counterparts will have a 2yr leap infront of us. Im not complaining. NS is a responsibility we're stucked to do but will ultimately fulfill at our fullest, even if its at our own lost. Aniway i bet i'll enjoy it since there's no other opportunity cost. I wanna study V V V V SOON.. Graduate.. have a job. Lessen eveyone in my family's burden. Own a car.. Have my own LIFE. Crap since i love studying so much, i may as well consider taking A lvs again.. FOR FUN. Zzzzzz BORING. THink abt it. Life is empty. And no matter how many one may try to do, you'll only cover up it's distinctive nature, nevergone and everlasting. And the sad thing is.. U cant just Die like that. Cos in Life there's still Pride, Dignity, Responsibility and also the Sentimental Value of ur existence, not to urself, but to those arnd u who will very much weep if u just die like tat. It's gonna be a long way to go. See thats why i said i think too much. I shld really just find more ways to coverup LIFE's "distinctive nature", well, if i put it tat way. Sorry but im cynical. Im a pessimist. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 11:34 PM Saturday, March 17, 2007 no matter how many times i heard Gekkouka. It still sounds nice to me. Even tho i dun even get wad he is singing. Got back from gunung lembak. Its sort of my first official trek. Nothing special apart falling woman and... more falling woman. And they claimed they had experience. Oh well. I still hate woman who claims they can do things they cant. Im not a sexist. In fact im beinging very fair. ARGHHH. Gone are all my planned plans again. I wonder wad i can do to spend my last 3wks of civilian life. Its getting a lil boring. NSNSNSNSNS where are u? Well at least i know there's something i need to do. 1) Get my wife fixed. 2)Get some army stuffs. i shld just go and slp now. gonna wake up early for breakfast tmr. NIGHTS to you my blog. i'm so sure of what i feel inside 11:31 PM Wednesday, March 14, 2007 Monotonously time passes by bit by bit. How much more of this do i have? Wad have i been doing recently. Erm.. WoW.. Dota... Stormriders.. Train.. Eat.. Slp... hah bordom drives a person to do funny things too. I've yet to submit my Uni applications. Mum was lyk OI QUICK SUBMIT leh. relak lah.. its not even based on first come first serve basis. Dun get me wrong, its not tat i have no idea wad to submit, its just tat im plain lazy to submit.. heard u'll have to do up an essay or smth.. zzz.. Oh well it shld be NTU Aerospace, NUS ECE, NTU EEE. As wad one of the aerospace prof said when i questioned him during the open house. Its quite hard for me to get into the course. Perhaps its time for me to get my testimonial or smth.. Sigh they were serious when they said tat they were looking for 3As. to think abt it. there's those with 4As and distinction for Spapers. Followed by 4As and merit for Spapers, 3As den its my turn. I;ve not even taken GP into consideration.. Its gonna be a tough fight.. why electronics some may ask.. well i've wanted mechanics at first.. but think abt it.. Electronics is lyk a deeper study of how machines work, compared to mechanics. U watch Initail D? Being a mechanical engineer will the most give u opportunities to modify the car's aerodynamics, heaviness ect. An electric engineer? U'll be able to deal with its ECU and go 1 step deeper into car tuning and performance. Cool huh.. Moreover most mechanical stuffs are done by Indians nowadays. i wouldnt wan to snatch jobs or even work on par with dem WAHhaaa... I LOVE IT WHENEVER THEY SHOUT....... BANKAI i'm so sure of what i feel inside 10:16 PM Saturday, March 3, 2007 My worst 2 subjects turned out to be my best 2. And ironically yet again. My best turned out to be my worst. But at least i've gotten a huge rock off my chest. Time to look forward to wad has left in life and wad is to come. "i've gotten enuf of the past. Its time to move on" Well i must still say tat its kinda commendable tat i managed to hit my target. My first academic target. But hopefully not the last. The journey to learning seems to have just began. Eva since it all started in k1, we seemed to have learnt everything however these knowledge attained is never deep enuf. So to speak. And now each of us will getting ourselves tuned to individual professions in which we will dwell deeper, perhaps for the rest of our lives. I caught Rocky this evening, and i must say tat it's really a pleasure to indulge in such a movie. Motivating, engaging. alot better den IWO JIMA tho. damned. its 3/3 and i almost forgot its tj's bday again i'm so sure of what i feel inside 12:08 AM |